My attention focused back on the present moment. I skipped forward on the audio recording and pressed play again.
The other thing about the aspect of your soul is... that light part of you, that photon-seeking light part of you, knows how to time travel. That's what we would say from our point of view. It has done a lot of time travelling.
It's almost in a parallel existence. It's involved in something that's way beyond our limited linear views of things, where we think of past, present and future and it's a timeline and yesterday happened yesterday and not tomorrow. Whereas your experience as light... sometimes yesterday does happen tomorrow, and three weeks ago is going to happen the day after tomorrow. There is a way in which what we think of as time is a lot more fluid.
What that means for you at a soul level is that your interaction with physical reality is kinda flexible. It also comes from a perspective of the real possibilities of what the future holds. So if you have the idea that there are ten to fifteen possibilities for what happens tomorrow and parallel universes would say that all fifteen of those possibilities are going to happen in separate universes, it means that in this universe now you have a stronger awareness than most people about the true reality of what's possible. Almost like it's a weird sixth sense. You really know what the consequences are, and you can play that out six, twelve, eighteen, twenty-four months into the future. That's really making a difference in your ability to interact with the universe in this here and now.
A whole lot of the motion on the planet right now has a lot to do with integrating who we are physically with who we are spiritually. And what this does is it integrates the infinite, eternal aspects of time with linear time itself so that you start being able to be aware that time has a fluidity that we don't think about with linear time. You're just not dealing with time in this life in a way that most people do.
More and more people are like you. You're going to find, ten years from now, it's a lot easier for you to feel like you can find someone that doesn't think you're a freak. It's just that there's a whole reality that's opening before us as we begin to really understand what this means to be physically and spiritually integrated. Because it gives capacity to who we are physically, that we haven't experienced for the most part on the earth for several thousand years. And it gives potential to our spiritual side that we haven't thought is possible. We thought we'd have to leave the Earth, that we physically have to be someplace else in order for us to have the experience of who we can be when we're integrated.
My God, she nailed it again. How did she know me so well? Time had always seemed so fluid to me. Even as a teenager, I had the sneaking suspicion that I was creating the past in the present moment. It was a feeling I couldn't shake, even into my adult life.
I'd also experience déjà vu, especially during periods of intense change in my life. Sometimes I'd even déjà vu in a dream. I'd get the eerie sensation that I was remembering the future. A year later, I'd déjà vu again in real life while living in a different country — only to realize I was physically standing in the scene from my dream a year earlier. It was very odd.
Another connection fired in my brain. I flipped through The Holographic Universe and paused on page 63.
Ullman believes that some aspects of psychosis can also be explained by the holographic idea. Both Bohm and Pribram have noted that the experiences mystics have reported throughout the ages — such as feelings of cosmic oneness with the universe, a sense of unity with all life, and so forth — sound very much like descriptions of the implicate order. They suggest that perhaps mystics are somehow able to peer beyond ordinary explicate reality and glimpse its deeper, more holographic qualities. Ullman believes that psychotics are also able to experience certain aspects of the holographic level of reality. But because they are unable to order their experiences rationally, these glimpses are only tragic parodies of the ones reported by mystics.
For example, schizophrenics often report oceanic feelings of oneness with the universe, but in a magic, delusional way. They describe feeling the loss of boundaries between themselves and others, a belief that leads them to think their thoughts are no longer private. They believe they are able to read the thoughts of others. And instead of viewing people, objects and concepts as individual things, they often view them as members of larger and larger subclasses, a tendency that seems to be a way of expressing the holographic quality of the reality in which they find themselves.
Ullman believes that schizophrenics try to convey their sense of unbroken wholeness in the way they view space and time. Studies have shown that schizophrenics often treat the converse of any relation as identical to the relation. For instance, according to the schizophrenic's way of thinking, saying that "event A follows event B" is the same as saying "event B follows event A". The idea of one event following another in any kind of time sequence is meaningless, for all points in time are viewed equal. The same is true of spatial relations. If a man's head is above his shoulders, then his shoulders are also above his head. Like the image in a piece of holographic film, things no longer have precise locations, and spatial relationships cease to have meaning.
Ullman believes that certain aspects of holographic thinking are even more pronounced in manic-depressives. Whereas the schizophrenic only gets whiffs of the holographic order, the manic is deeply involved in it and grandiosely identifies with its infinite potential. "He can't keep up with all the thoughts and ideas that come at him in so overwhelming a way, " states Ullman. "He has to lie, dissemble, and manipulate those about him so as to accommodate to his expansive vista. The end result, of course, is mostly chaos and confusion mixed with occasional outbursts of creativity and success in consensual reality.” In turn, the manic becomes depressed after he returns from this surreal vacation and once again faces the hazards and chance occurrences of everyday life.
If it is true that we all encounter aspects of the implicate order when we dream, why don't these encounters have the same effect on us as they do on psychotics? One reason, says Ullman, is that we leave the unique and challenging logic of the dream behind when we wake. Because of his condition the psychotic is forced to contend with it while simultaneously trying to function in everyday reality. Ullman also theorizes that when we dream, most of us have a natural protective mechanism that keeps us from coming into contact with more of the implicate order than we can cope with.
Michael Talbot
There you go, I thought. Maybe I'm not crazy. Maybe I just have greater access to the implicate order than most people do.
I certainly wasn't delusional, was I? I knew my head was above my shoulders, and event A came before event B. I just sometimes felt like event B caused event A, that's all...
